Subhanallah. We plan but Allah is the best of planners.
I was planning for a smooth sailing Ramadan, but Allah tabaaraka wataa’ala had other plans for us.
We came home from work to find our home been broken into.
Alhamdulillah all of us were safe and unharmed.
We don’t have valuables in our house so Alhamdulillah the thieves didn’t get much. But they did manage to grab our spare keys to the house and car on their way out.
The thought of someone else having keys to your car and your house is just indescribable MashaAllah.
Now, wherever I stop to park my car – I feel unsafe. I feel like someone will just use that spare key, hop into the car and drive it away.
Every time I was at home, I’d feel fear. Fear that someone might just simply unlock our doors and infiltrate our home.
There was also a twinge of anger & humiliation. That a complete stranger rummaged through my belongings and my private things – they know me but I don’t know who they are and what they’re going to do with my stuff. I feel that my privacy has been invaded.
Feeling unsafe in your own house is really a terrible feeling that I do not wish on anyone subhanallah.
Alhamdulillah we managed to replace and install all the doors yesterday and now I’m more at peace.
Though it got me thinking. The few days of feeling fear in the house was pretty unbearable for me. Your home is where you should feel safe. And yet, I felt vulnerable and insecure.
But out there, in Palestine, in Syria.. in Rohingya.. in so many countries – my brothers and sisters in faith are getting it way worse than me. Their houses are not only infiltrated to be robbed – but they’re captured, murdered and raped right in their own living rooms.
While Alhamdulillah, I was given the luxury to replace my doors – for them – doors are simply not an option. The only thing left from their houses are heaps of rubbles.
To stay in a house that’s been showered by missiles from jet fighters – knowing that your house might fall on you anytime..
To feel your walls vibrating by the sonic boom air raids and fearing it might collapse anytime.
To feel ever so insecure in your own home but have nowhere else to go.
What I’m experiencing is nothing compared to some of my brothers and sisters out there.
To still be give the opportunity to live and breath and try do something for those who are struggling out there.
And I’m so grateful for this test, subhanallah. It was through this that I’ve truly learnt and appreciate all the awesome and wonderful people around me MashaAllah. Our family, friends, neighbours and even colleagues at work were extremely supportive throughout the ordeal, Subhanallah.
Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal. Thank you, Allah for everything.
Ya Allah, make us among those who are always grateful for your blessings
Ya Allah, grant us empathy and make us among those who are actively helping others in this world ya Allah
Ya Allah, thank you for all that you have give to us.
And grant hidayah to those thieves ya Allah..